Im sure it goes without saying from reading about my childhood but I have mental health issues and Im not sure having a child of my own is something I will ever be mentally ready for, but I certainly wasnt then. Not as alone because feeling my baby every night move around gives me hope. Theres no good option. I came from foster care and was 19 when I became pregnant. 13 years later I still cry for my baby. This time is different. I got an abortion 6 days ago. Wish I had a way to contact you personally. In my heart i know that baby would have deserved better, but is it ok to feel THat way? Family assumes that I just dont want to have them, when in reality, now, is that no one will have one with me. God is never bored of you. It was beautiful. I love this story. No one understands what Im feeling, I hate myself for this. Same with me 7 years. But then, Im scared that I will have to raise a child by myself. I cough and drink more water until it goes down, close to you. Im 8-9 weeks pregnant, i have not told him since we are not together although we still engage in sex. I have a toddler and Im pregnant again. If anything more of their fault because they shoot the load but were the ones that have to suffer through the pain. We have only been together 8 months though. I had an abortion when I was an illegal immigrant my boyfriend that time wanted me to get an abortion. He even started pulling out old toys and other items from when his own children were young. Im almost 6 weeks pregnant and although I want this baby, my husband does not. How first and my first. Im 22 and I recently went through my 2nd abortion. We were told if we wanted children we would have to make a concerned effort. I always imagine what he or she would have looked like and I feel I failed my child. I always thought she would come back to me somehow but only in my sleeping dreams and waking thoughts. I would do things so differently. We have been having the same unprotected sex as we were while still together. Oh Mommy please, just give me a chance I had a late term surgical abortion, against my will. That is a beautiful thought and may have helped me make my decision . A postabortion woman wrote the following letter to her aborted baby, who she named Grace: "Everyone close to me was affected by that awful day - none more so than you and I though. Letter from a Woman Who Had an Abortion | EWTN I even Bought girl stuff.. in the end I told myself he was right. I wish I could turn back the hands of time. Even if i dont want an abortion, i have to do it for my future and my boyfriends future. The doctor leaves and your dad and I hold each other and cry. I hate that Im stuck with making this decision. We were in this sad nightmare together, weren't we? Thank you so much for this. This would have delayed everything. I am sure I am going to be the Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. Everything about the timing felt wrong, but even then I still wanted my baby. And Ill honour them both every minute of every day. I was worried I would have preeclampsia again, which could put baby and me in danger. Iv never felt worse in my whole life. Im so torn and feel so alone. My name is also Ashley and im also at the 10 year mark. There are no other words. He doesnt know the end result, nor do I feel that he deserves to. My advice to you would be do it if YOU want to, dont let nobody not your parents or partner tell you what to do, take some time and think about it because it is a situation that stays with you forever. I found out Im 6 weeks pregnant last week. I still wonder if o made the right decision. Not until Im sure. Im ready,but am I really ready? This is the worst pain Ive ever felt and the most heartbroken and devastated Ive ever been. I move into the mini-counseling session with your dad, and we are firm on our decision. Time went on and as I struggled with my decision he eventually came around. So many of the feelings you described in your post match mine, and as I read, I finally felt something other than alone. Thank you again. I cried every day leading up to me making a decision, and I set the appointment for the very next day after I decided so that I would not have much time to change my mind. it really makes my decision i made 10 months ago seem like the right one. I feel guilty because I strjuglle to show real excitement when I know others want to when they find out and I feel so false trying to bounce off their energy. I just wish I presented her with an easy choice. I just turned 21,everyone wants me to keep the baby and I want to be a mom but I dont at the same time. I already have a 1 yr old but im 5 months. You will always be part of my heart, and I know that if someday I see two pink lines again, it will be you coming back to me. I paced the bathroom, test in hand, pants still around my ankles, repeating curses to myself like a meditative mantra. This woman's open letter to her abortion will move you I want more than anything to be a mom. You can do more than you think you can. I hear you and Im there for you. I'm your baby. Truth is, I have no job, I am back in school with one child taken care of by my parents, I cannot bring another right now and of I did this new opportunity would go away. I was so lonely and had nobody to talk to, man I really thought I was gonna go crazy when we took the break. You are making a decision that will affect not only your life but your boyfriend and your child if you choose to continue. Your baby. I feel like shit because I was raised that this was wrong. She told me she was flattered but nothing could stop her from the abortion. A 33-year-old mother of three from central Texas is escorted down the hall by a clinic administrator prior to getting an abortion, at Hope Medical Group for Women in Shreveport, La., in late 2021. I moved to another state, finished my undergrad (with a newborn) in teaching and even completed grad school also in teaching (with a toddler at the time). Im in a very similar situation, I have a 3 year old, my fianc and I decided to try for number 2. I know God and His angels will help. I think about you so often and wish so badly I could turn back time. Every now and then I am haunted. Dimplez, The Gift Of Life By I didn't know you, but I loved you. I was 6 weeks when I went for an ultrasound .. and all I saw was a small blob that I referred to as my nugget. Abortion - Pro Life - Letter From an Unborn Child Im absolutely terrified of both scenarios and have been crocodile tearing constantly. The dad had permit and he wanted to have the baby And he even offer to get merried because I also was afraid of telling my family and I said no with in 3 or 4 days after founding out I abort our baby . Im not pregnant. I went into the first floor bathroom and peed on that little white-tipped stick. Sending love xx. I feel I will never stop crying and never stop being broken hearted at my loss. One day you will be an amazing mum, dont doubt that! I had an abortion past the point of having the pill so had to have the surgery, It was the most painful time of my life physically and emotionally and I never expected it would continue to haunt me. Im so confused and torn between getting an abortion or keeping the baby. I cant quit my job, but I cant afford 2 in daycare either. I am curious as wel. Says he can no longer trust me as I betrayed him for the past 10 years. So please mommy, don't let me down. Ive never allowed a man to make me feel like this. Abortion - Pro Life - Letter From an Unborn Child Letter from an unborn child As falling rain is the tears of God for the blood spilled of the unborn children that covers the hands of the human race. 'Dangerous and unacceptable': White House condemns efforts to stop Again, I sleep in the same room as your dad that night, and when my alarm goes off, I get ready to take the bus to work. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Its been 3 months since my abortion. My boyfriend stayed with me but after a while he started blaming me and our relationship change . I was one l with you. I still was no where near ready for how much my life would have to change. Im 18 and also 6 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend says I have to abort it. I hope you are healing well and have found happiness in other areas of life, until you and your unborn baby see each other again. I love him he doesnt exactly feel the same, as per the way our relationship has gone these last few Years which caused it to end. I dont want to let you go. I cant share any of this with him. I still wonder what if. I just found out I am pregnant at 42. If you can handle a child, have it. Now, faced with having one in our early 40s is terrifying. I know I would feel his kicks by now. And chips. He doesnt mean too, hes just a consummate bachelor annnnddddd.damn it. He would have been 7 and his name was Dyno. I sit there like that until I hear the front door open and your dad walks in. I dont have the financial capability to take care of a child. Oh mommy, I can't go on anymore help me 17 years have gone by since you made that fateful decision. I can identify , however the thought of another pregnancy scared me.. so I never wanted another child.. after this..This was 28 years later, I am in the same boat currently. Hesitantly I got the pill, I was just a day before 10 weeks, I held my baby and cried until I couldnt. I dont know what to do but I see no way out of this. I was rattled with anxiety and guilt and overwhelmed. I did it because I loved that little soul so much that I knew he deserved better. She is planning to keep the baby because she doesnt think she could handle the depression that would follow an abortion. I am unable to have children, so I will never know what it feels like, but I share your pain through the experiences of others. I am 29, and I had a medical abortion at 6 weeks on December 6th of this year. There are so many things I am looking forward to, and I can't wait to be held in your arms and taught by the very best mama I can think of! Now she feels she let her self and everyone else down. And when that day comes, well both be ready. I just wanted to let you know that the decision I made was very painful and still hurts at times but that it does get easier especially if you know you made it for the right reasons. A Letter From Baby to His Mother Right Before Abortion (15 Photos) If your willing to share that is. We talk about how we could make it work, but it just doesnt make sense. Mom's Letter to Baby During Pregnancy | POPSUGAR Family April S., New Jersey. According to a webpage shared online by Crump, she has raised over $30,000 by Friday morning and will seek abortion care in North Carolina. A lot of people who are not able to have children would love to adopt. This hurts me down to my soul. I havent spoken to my parents yet. I want to experience the excitement of my first day at school I have to go through a second one and I dont know what to do. Sophie R. Pregnancy Poems I just wanted to say thank-you for sharing your story. I was never able to have a child, she was my first and only chance. I was shocked. Are doctors in Texas afraid to say 'abortion?' : Shots - NPR I know it sounds irresponsible to have sex with a man that Im not with unprotected. Just since December is when I noticed I wasnt having my normal periods. Hes worried our quality of life will suffer for the whole family. Common Mistakes: the word "i" should be capitalized, "u" is not a word, and "im" is spelled "I'm" or "I am". You were crying, but I was dealing with the most pain of all. I commend you for making that choice. It is sad to see children God has made being murdered. This brings me to a previous pregnancy right before this in which I unfortunately miscarried. Dont forget the chips! I waited for him on the couch in our front room, digging my thumb into the ridge of my index finger on both hands.